Saturday, January 11, 1879 Dear little Ezra is getting worse & although we thought he couldn’t live last night he is still alive this morning & at ½ past 5 Dave started to Keota after Dr McFarlane He came about 9 am but gave us no hope He left some medicine & Roy went to Vics & got a syringe Wm & Old Mrs Foster came Mrs Foster stayed most of the day Vic & wife came over Mrs Jones & Josie  called Clara Hicks came and was a great help & a good kind woman Bell Kindle came & she was a great help about the work & done all she could She is a good girl Poor little Ezra suffers much most of the time & says rock me Mother & rock me father Rock me hard and when the pain is very severe he says, Oh my, Oh my All we could do didn’t seem to help him & he died between 11 & 12 oclock this eve I was holding one of his little hands when he died His pain seemed to leave him and he died easy & was conscious & his mother & I both held him, about an hour before he died he tried to climb out of the cradle on to our laps Oh it was hard to see the dear little child lay & suffer so & die & we could do nothing for him He was a kind and affectionate little boy Allways on good terms with other children & always without exception showed a kind & affectionate disposition to us his father & mother He never was a very healthy looking child nor yet very sickly, but frail looking & seemed more like a girl than a boy He always wore his hair long & it curled beautifully & his mother took great pride in combing it & fixing up her handsome little boy & at such times he would come to me & say aint I a pretty good looking boy, but now we have lost him & must bury him away in the cold ground Our Darling little Ez & all the consolation left to us is his sufferings are over & he surely has gone to a better world but Oh tis hard to give him up Yet he will live in the memory of his Father & Mother while life lasts Goodbye little Ezra Delos Carr
Friday, Jan 10 We were up all night with little Ezra and he is worse I fear he has the Dipptheritil Croup and will never get well I went and got old Mrs Jones a Dr woman and she said there was very little hope for him Goodwin came early and worked ½ day and stayed till most night when he went home Ez and Amanda came up also Holden & Laura & Father Dave went after Father but he was not at home Ez & Dave went & took Old Mrs Jones home after dark She charged 75 cents but wouldn’t take the pay as it was her Sabbath this Eve
Sadness and loss of a son visits the Carr household in early January 1879. These passages must have been very difficult for Isaac to write and they convey a very sad and heart-wrenching time for the Carr family.
Wednesday, Jan 8 I went and got Sele shod and now I have him and frank well shod all raind [reined?] We chopped and hauled wood Little Ezra is sick and very hoarse to day but seems a good deal better and plays as usual this eve We got 6 loads of wood
Tuesday Oct 1 Cleaned up a load of wheat & went to Keota 23 bu sold to Rice for 56 cts Bell went over with me She felt very bad in leaving She cried most of the time going over & I felt as bad as she did She is a good kind hearted & affectionate woman a good neighbor we will never get a better I gave her the dress I bought & she was well pleased with it I took dinner at Fields Mush & Milk I got lemons for Mag & yeast 4 cows took this week little [in light pencil was written at the end of this passage “heifer Samson”].
August 31stwent to Amandas &took her money to her She paid My railroad fare one way $30,00 So that left her $170,00 & then I gave her the $20,00 that Aunt Mariah sent & the $5,00 that Uncle sent making in all $195,00 for her I took dinner there & My mare broke loose & caused me much trouble to catch her I went to Craigs to see the thrashers as I want to thrash I went & looked to the hogs
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